The Newborn Phase Almost Killed Me

The Newborn Phase Almost Killed Me

I wasn’t prepared for it; not in a million years The newborn phase seriously almost killed me.

My kids are a bit older now, but they still don’t sleep through the night. Which prompted me to reminisce about the good ol’ newborn phase. Cute little babies, fresh into this world – AAAH SO CUTE right?!

ONLY WHEN THEY’RE SLEEPING.

Here are some things that I struggled with during the newborn phase:

Not having an instant bond with my first born
Not knowing if I would ever sleep for 15 minutes at a time ever again
The sudden reality that my life would never ever be the same
Never fully having a deep sleep because my senses were tuned to everything baby
Never finishing a cup of tea or coffee
My new body
The huge responsibility that was being a parent
The new emotions that came with being a parent
Depression
Breastfeeding
Our relationship (mine and Phil’s)
Did I mention sleeping?
Not knowing what I was doing as a parent
Was that a hungry cry, or a tired cry?
Trusting my instincts

Now that my kids are a little older, and they don’t sleep through the night, I am a little wiser. I do know that everything changes. I know that one minute they can wake up, and the next they can have a solid 12 hour sleep.

They’re unpredictable creatures, but they’re always changing.

All I can say is thank goodness they eventually grow out of the waking up part. Or at least just grow up and can deal with it by themselves.

I know that makes me sound selfish, but I am a much better parent when I’ve had sleep!