Ever have those down days that seem to stretch on for months!? Man I feel like I’m stuck in this never-ending cycle.
I am currently 86kgs. That’s 10kgs above my ideal weight, and maybe 15kgs above my goal weight. I don’t give a cr*p about people knowing how much I weigh. I’m 173cms tall, so 86kgs isn’t the worst, but I don’t feel good about it.
I hate the way I feel about myself, and I know what I need to do to change it, but change doesn’t happen fast enough for me.
Because I hate the way I feel about myself, I can’t imagine anyone wanting to know me, or be friends with me. So sometimes my husband and I struggle because of my insecurities.
So finally, I mentally talk myself into a headspace where I’m ready to tackle my weight. So I start eating healthy. I start exercising. Then after a week of seeing no results, I go back to eating crap and feeling bad about myself.
It’s a vicious cycle.
I wish it was easier to love myself in whatever “state” I am in.
Does anyone else struggle with this? Please tell me I’m not alone!!