I Wish I Wasn’t Like This
“Hey Maria, how’s your weight loss going?”
“Are you still doing the 5:2 fast diet?”
AAAAAARGH I don’t want to answer these questions because it means I have to admit that I’m not doing well. I suck at losing weight.
I start, then I fail. So I start again, and I fail again.
I’m so f’ing sick and tired of it.
Truth of the matter is, I LOVE FOOD. I’m addicted to it.
I know how to lose weight too – eat less food, make the food I eat relatively good food (all about balance right?!), and exercise. It’s not rocket science.
I don’t want to take diet pills, I don’t want to take supplements, I don’t want to do juice cleanses and I don’t want to drink shakes: I want to change my lifestyle so that I am healthy and happy.
I am not healthy, and I am certainly not happy.
Sometimes I wish I could get hypnotised to not want to eat shitty foods.
Ultimately it comes down to self control, which clearly I don’t have. But sometimes I do, sometimes I CAN lose weight but then I slip back into old habits and before I know it I’m back to my overweight self.
I actually have a feeling I’m going to spend my whole life struggling with this addiction.
It’s embarrassing, but it’s the truth.