OUT OF MY ROUTINE
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Today I was out of my routine. My usual. The order in which I do stuff. If you can’t tell – that picture is from about 10 minutes ago. My hair totally gets how I feel.
It is currently 7:02pm, and I am at the dining room table on my laptop typing this. My 2 year old is on a tablet, and my 4 year old is on a phone. I am most definitely not winning the “mother of the year award” …
Tonight instead of having dinner at home, we had it at my parents house. It was fantastic – the kids love it there. But I didn’t get home until 630. I hadn’t fed the kids at home, didn’t give them a bath, didn’t let them have a play. My usual routine. I also hadn’t cleaned the lunch-boxes, made the lunches for tomorrow, put away the washing … and the millions of other things I do between 3pm and 7pm.
Instantly I felt overwhelmed. Got shitty (tried not to take it out on the kids). Threw the kids into their PJ’s and then parked them in front of a device.
Just so that I could pull my shit together. I then went and did the millions of things (which was actually 5 things) I usually have done by 7pm.
I am not proud of it. But that’s what happened.
When stuff like that happens, and my routine goes out the window, sometimes I can’t deal with it. MOST of the time, I’m ok. But tonight I wasn’t.
It’s like I’m a toddler sometimes ????
I’ve gotten everything done now, and feel better that I’m back on track.
Anyway. I just wanted to have a bitch. If you read this – thanks for taking time to do it. Hopefully it wasn’t to much of a waste of your time.
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