I hold a lot of guilt within myself whenever I choose to sit down and watch Netflix, or even read a book; however I am learning to release myself from this guilt.
I don’t know what it is about being a Mum, but for some reason I feel like because I’m a stay-at-home-parent, I must always be doing something.
If I’m not cooking or preparing a meal, doing the laundry or housework or even tidying up; then I feel an enormous amount of guilt.
Maybe because I know my husband is working his arse off at work, while I decide if I want to watch something on Netflix.
What I have to do, however, is remind myself of everying I’ve done.
I’ve spent 7 years looking after children non-stop (I have a 6 year old and an 8 year old).
Four years of which was definitely looking after babies / toddlers who woke multiple times during the night.
I’d often day dream of being able to go to work like my husband did, and have five minutes peace.
Heck I’d even dream about going to the toilet in peace.
To this day, I still can’t have a shower without hearing a phantom cry.
I have been mentally scarred by the trials and tribulations of parenthood.
I have to remind myself of this because I am allowed to have a fucking break.
I am allowed to sit down for 4 years and watch TV if I wanted to and it still wouldn’t make up for the 7 years of hard bloody work I put in – of work I STILL put in.
You need to remind yourself of this too.
Parenting is a full time job – you are not any less of a person because you’re a full time parent. OR a full time worker.
Parenting, in all its forms, is extremely difficult and demanding and tiring and we need to ease up on ourselves.
Who cares if you sit down and want to watch TV – give up the guilt. You deserve a break.
Want to let the washing pile build and build? Do it.
Release yourself from the guilt and remember that it is ok to have a break. Netflix is calling you and you’re allowed to answer.