These last few weeks I’ve been really struggling mentally. My diet has slipped, and I have been eating gluten products again (I have Coeliac Disease, and have been gluten free for 1 month now).
It has become apparent that eating gluten foods not only wreaks havoc with my gut, it wreaks havoc with my brain too.
On Thursday / Friday, those normal “PND” thoughts started creeping back into my head, and I couldn’t figure out why. I’m on top of my meds, so it can’t be that.
So I started looking at my diet, and it’s not perfect. Eating gluten foods means that it’s usually processed – which means it’s bad for you anyway.
So my weight has been going up.
So my mood goes down.
Accepting that my diet has to change forever is a constant struggle. I love food so much.
Sometimes I wish I had a personal chef to make me exciting meals haha …
Also, yesterday, my 18 month old son accidentally knocked my laptop onto a side table, which knocked over my full cup of coffee and it spilt all over my laptop.
I wasn’t angry at him, because it was an accident, but internally I beat myself up for the situation occurring.
Then I had to use my stupid phone all day, and my entire routine got thrown out the window. So then I had no laptop, which insurance wouldn’t cover because I didn’t realise you had to purchase additional cover for accidents (WTF, I KNOW) …
Just feels like my life is a bit blah at the moment. I’m sure you’ve all had moments like that …. it’ll pick up, but sometimes it feels like I’ve dug a hole that I can’t get out of …..
