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How I Feel About My Kid Starting School
2017 marks the year my daughter will officially start at school. A few of you have asked how I feel about this, so I’m going to lay it out for you:
I’m fucking terrified.
I’m not terrified of me not having her at home, because she already goes to Kindergarten 5 days a week. My husband and I made the decision to send her to a Kindy to help prepare her for school. That was one of my biggest fears, and still is, that she isn’t ready for school.
I’m terrified that she’s not going to like school. I’m terrified that she’s going to struggle. I’m terrified she is going to be bullied.
I was bullied at school, and I remember it so vividly. Even the teachers were dicks to me because I wasn’t one of the “cool kids”. Some days (a lot of days) I dreaded going to school. It only really got better when I got to 5th Form (so old school I know) and we could actually choose subjects and the bullies went to study other things.
I realise that some things are a part of life: struggling is a part of life; but it still terrifies me to think my daughter might have to go through the shitty stuff. Especially the bullying.
I definitely think Chloe is ready to start school. Her school visits went really well, and although being in a new situation is scary for her, I know that the school she is going to be great. I am not worried about her in the classroom at al, as the teachers are amazing.
I am determined not to have my fears put on my daughter, and I would never verbalise them to her, but it still terrifies me for her.
I don’t even know if that makes sense, but that’s how I feel about my kid starting school.
How did you feel about your kids starting school?